to lovely humans who were excluded from invitations, left behind when they tied their shoes, forced to walk in the grass when the sidewalk was full, spoken over when you tried to contribute, whispered about or laughed at, given the side eye when you tried to fit in… you are so worthy of love and I’m sorry people have convinced you otherwise. I promise that your people are out there - people who will see the side of you others ignore, people who share weird inside jokes with you, give you affectionate nicknames and go to museums or roadtrips with you and fulfil whatever idea of friendship you’ve always fantasized about. even if you feel like an empty shell of your former self because you’ve hidden yourself away due to shame, this exterior will melt when you accept yourself or let people in and you’ll realize there was nothing wrong with you all along. you have interesting things to say, you deserve new chances and beginnings, your heart is probably made of gold because you know what it’s like to be left out in the cold, and you have so much to give. you are so worthy and someone’s idea of a friend too, and I hope you receive lots of hugs in the future from yourself and others because you’re so lovable.
If you think your friend is suffering from depression or mental illness or know they are and are having an episode YOU have to reach out…odds are they won’t. I don’t reach out for help not even when I was suicidal. And no one reached out to me or forced me into a hospital like I should have been I was all alone and didn’t contact anyone. I was showing clear signs of withdrawal and depression/mania and no one reached out that made me think no one cared. Talking to my friends now about it they noticed but thought that since I didn’t reach out I was fine. I didn’t reach out cus they didn’t reach out and I thought they didn’t care. So please reach out and take action first if you see someone struggling and in need of help. Please be the first to check in. I can’t name a reason I’m alive right now and didn’t kill myself I just didn’t and that’s the only reason I’m here. Please be the first to reach out if you think someone is struggling. Please don’t be afraid of being over bearing or think that we will hate you. We won’t we will highly appreciate it!
i’ve been living in prison for the past month and a half. living with my parents is a living hell right now. i’m 24 y/o yet i’m still treated as a 10 y/o. doesn’t sound bad to a lot of people but the nitty gritty details are stupid af that normal people’s parents wouldn’t give a damn about. anyways, there’s my rant for today and probably for the rest of the year.
